It didn't disappear completely
I'm not cured.
Sometimes i cry so much, so desperately in pain
I have those little attacks
that i hold on so tight to anything close to me, to feel some balance, a base
to all the shaking, to the lack of control, to the desperation.
the never ending crying.
It hurts so deeply in that moment, that all that i can think of is if i'm gonna either disperse or crash.
The pain didn't fade, i just got a little better at hiding it again.
even from myself.